February 23rd
10:31 PM
10:31 PM
every time i talk photoshoots with people the following dialogue goes on in my head:
- photoshoot! exciting!
- oh, fuck, i’ve probably gained twenty pounds since i was last photographed, ew.
- who the fuck cares? it’s not like i want to be an actual model or anything.
- still, should i risk a diet?
- yeah, probably. it’s worth a shot.
- but you know crash diets never work anyway…
- maybe i’ll just kick up my pilates routines.
- yeah, that would be good.
- maybe i shouldn’t even agree to this. objectification and all that bullshit.
- but still…photoshoot! exciting!
suffice to say my head is kind of a fucked-up place to live.
